Never Give Up!!!

A Bad news, Siloso beach resort sentosa did not accept us as trainee. It make me omos give up to go to Singapore when i received the email. However, my fren, who from china, did not give up even tot gt refused and our officer Ms N ( jz put the 1st letter) kept told him tat it is not easy for China to get thr for training to persuade him train over here . He is very persist n said tat "i wanna try even it is hard". In fact, i admit i reli want give up n choose Hilton kuching as Ms N told me singapore hotel only accept face to face interview.Which mean i have to pay for my own flight ticket to go thr interview n come back again. =m= em....it made me think twice,,So, when i saw he, a china guy, which more difficult to gt into Singapore compare with Malaysian, i felt tat i should not give up. Now, we try to apply the other hotel, One Fullerton Hotel, i think is 5 stars hotel...?Mayb i oso not so sure. Pray for lord.=3 tis is wat i only can do while waiting..hope everything will go smoothly as i wish...Gambatek my frens and me too~!!!

Singapore Vs Kuching

2year n 4 months,my college life is going to finish..i will say bye bye to u college.The next step of my life will be enter to training industry. And nw,the problem annoying me is coming. The place im going to training, whr will it be? SINGAPORE or KUCHING? previously Kch did not provided salary for trainee, nw have a good news tat Hilton kch looking for customer service agent and they will pay the salary n will consider it as ur training too, hw good is it.So nw I reli hv no idea whr to go.The most important person for me n my family at kch of coz i do not want to leave kch..but, tis training wil influence my future...the decision i make will make my future way different...Singapore,a place i desire to go for training before.I asked every semester jz hope tat singapore accept trainee,n luckily, tis semester my hope was come true thx lord..bside thx for lord i oso need to thx for d other person,the person most important for me,Mr.L..bcoz of him i decided to go to Singapore without hesitate..if he didnt told me the truth about u tat day i think 90% i wont go Singapore..anywhere,nw i feel want to go singapore is omos 100%. I hope Singapore hotel will provide accommodation as well as salary n meals...Hope it wll come true...hope tis time, i can face my fear of take flight...or i will be stay at Kch again..>m<

INSOMNIA AGAIN

at tis moment i dono how to describe my feeling...a bit sadness,moody,blur or wat???not really can find out wat actually my feeling right nw...insomnia find me again..i cant fall sleep...all the hurt memories keep replaying and replaying in my mind when closing my eyes and my tears kept dropping when recall it..i tried hard to stop it but i cant...few weeks ord..i still cant escape from wat u told me..please...go away from my mind....PLEASE.....

13 april 2010,

回到家了..不懂该说闷呢还是心情低落...???? (-__-)

听到你刚才说“ 没有留下来陪我吗? " 心里有开心了一下。。本来想说先回家下再出来，想说尽量不麻烦你假如有顺风车当然就跟顺风车出，

其实很希望可以留下来的 (因为在家真的真的很闷。。。)其实很希望你会说出你可以过来载我，可是从你口中说出得却是“觉得有点累，假如你家人有出你才跟他们车出来，没有的话就不要紧”..

还有一点就是，你说你累，但等下的结果就是去打dota。。

打dota不说累 来载我却说有点累 真的会让我心痛那么一下下...

让我感觉好像对你来说 我是 "可有可无" 

我知道 或许你没有那样得意思，可能是我想太多就如你所说的...

感觉我真的越来越自私，越来越贪心，越来越小气，越来越别扭，越来越不容易满足..

人就是自私 明明知道你累了应该让你休息..但心里却一直有任性得期望(=__=)...

小小的满足~

30 march 2010,

To My LLG..

2day im felt happy happy bcoz of u kept accompany me after i bac frm sch since afternoon til i slpt..i reli like u owes keep in touch wif me..^w^..reli reli hv a long time we hv no sms such a long time even tot it jz only 20++ sms,mayb for others it's nt a special thing nt a thing tat cant make happy 4 u ppl, bt 4 me,it can made me happy for a whole day...

讨厌夜晚

讨厌, 我很讨厌夜晚，因为夜晚常常会想他，一直在想他现在在做什么，一直在等待着他的信息和来电。我也不懂为什么，是习惯了，还是害怕？好希望可以常常的陪我聊天陪我信息，虽然我常常不懂得该说怕什么，但是就是很爱听你的声音。因为我不懂得我的生命尽头在哪里...五十年？三十年？十年？一年？明天？或下一分钟...？你曾说过，我的生命线可以突然间掉到危险边缘，这一点我也同意。对我来说，生与死只是一线之差罢了，这一秒还好好的，下一秒就会突然呼吸困难，轻则只是维持一下下，重则连气也透不过感觉真的快死掉了。最近也不懂干嘛常常会病发，前天一次，前几天一次，在民都鲁的时候也一次..或许这就是为什么我很希望你可以晚上常常陪我就算只是陪我讲电话或写信息我都会很开心。很怕突然有一天病发了就不能再聊天了。。所以，请你多陪陪我好吗？

这都只是我心里的话 虽然我知道你不可能会看得到，我也不懂得怎么告诉你，所以我也只是把心情全写在这儿发泄一下...(@w@)

我？

最近真的不懂自己在搞什么心情常常处于低落处，明明已经得到我要知道的答案了明明心情有好转很多了现在却还是这样。。。心情一直随着你的一举一动而沉沉浮浮。。我一直有很努力得对自己说别再期待别再想那么多，想多了也没用，只会让自己心情不好，也对身体不好，一点好处都没有。。但最近越来越难这样说服我自己了，我不懂到底是怎么一回事。。。我真的越来越搞不明白我自己了。。。